My boyfriend wants me to trust him, but he acts in a way that it's hard to trust him (Gay) What would you do?

First off, this is not about him cheating on me, lying to me, or anything of that sort.





It's more along the lines of ';trusting'; him in the sense of trusting him with something a bit embarassing about myself.





Back story:





I'm currently going to see a therapist this coming up week, and I've been worried she will diagnose or tell me I have OCD. I have a lot of habitual problems a cliche OCD case has, and it flares when I get nervous. I come from a family that is very... Wary of anything (even slightly) mentally wrong with someone.





My boyfriend is studying to be a counseler, so he has researched many disorders and knows them quite well. He's generally aware that I'm nervous (I do officially have GAD) and that I could have OCD.





Coming to the problem;





He thinks my OCD tendancies are cute. That's fine, I like it when he thinks I'm cute. However as the therapist date draws near, I tend to do more and more ';rituals'; out of nervousness, and it's really embarassing me. I try to keep it from him.





Were both young guys, so we play video games together occasionally. We do not live together, so we went on an online game called ';Left 4 Dead 2';.





I wanted to clean my chair really bad. It kept bothering me. So I turned off my game station without telling him and proceeded to clean the chair, then the rest of my room for about 30 minutes.





Why didn't I tell him? One of the ';conditions'; (in my head) of cleaning the chair was that I was not allowed to talk during it. Ugh, don't ask. I don't even know why myself.





I was angry with myself, and embarrassed. So I called him and told him ';Good night'; and left pretty much.





So this morning, he was obviously upset...





I called him, and I apologized. I also offered to buy him this one (other) video game he wants.





He got mad, told me that I can't buy him off like that. I really wasn't, I just wanted to make him happy. I told him this, and asked him again. He said ';I don't want your stupid gifts';.





I don't know why this made me upset, but it did. I hung up.





I calmed myself and called him back. I tried to hint towards how I left because of a compulsion, but I couldn't get it out. I was stuttering really bad at this point, and not really making myself clear.





I finally told him the full reason, and he called it suspicious. He knows better than anyone about my compulsions, so why is it so suspicious(?), I thought.





I told him that I just don't want to tell him everything, and then he got really pissed about me not trusting him. He told me he had a headache, because I stressed him out. I felt horrible because he gets really bad migraines and I know I cause them sometimes.





The point is; I feel he acted a bit out of line, especially since I apologized right away. Is this normal behavior? Was he going overboard, or was I doing something wrong? He's a great guy, don't get me wrong. I love him to death, but how can he expect me to trust him with sensitive information if he's so (1) blatantly blind to it unless I spell it out, and (2) gets extremely angry when things like this do happen.





Thanks, sorry for the long post. =PMy boyfriend wants me to trust him, but he acts in a way that it's hard to trust him (Gay) What would you do?
First of all being in a gay relationship is hard as is because I am too.... Your behavior is normal yes but he blew it out of proportion he should be understanding and be your bf, no you were not doing anything wrong out of your ordinary everyday life schedule he should accept this, you however should be willing to tell him this information no matter how embarrassing this may seem I used to be that way with my wife and it only hurts the relationship and puts strain on hell yes there are embarrassing thing to tell your lover but if they love you then they will Truly understand.My boyfriend wants me to trust him, but he acts in a way that it's hard to trust him (Gay) What would you do?
i think that if you want to succeed in this relationship,


you are going to have to trust him with embarrassing information!





the more you share with him,


the better he'll be able to understand


and assist you!





if you expect patience and understanding from him -


then you have to show him patience and understanding!!
I think this is one of those relationship that takes time and to me it sounds like fun going through this. You have someone to go through and help you understand all of this. I would think thats pretty nice then again I'm desprate. Um give it time the more time you spend with him the more he will get to understand what is going on. P.S. I think studduring is cute